Life after breakups

Continued...
Basically...I had been that shy guy that never gets the girl, but tonight it was going to change. I guess cupid or whoever is responsible for making people feel weird...sorry meant fall in love had finally seen my "lonely life" and saw it fit to mess me up. If only you were visible... the numerous insults you would have received on behalf of all you have messed up.
I had planned never to get myself in those meaningless awkward interactions with females...I saw no purpose for them neither the time to see their or hear their nagging traits...At-least that's what I heard after seeking  advise from the elders of this game they call DATING...I prefer Call Of Duty its much easier!!!
So here I was...dosing off despite the loud music playing in the background...off she was shaking her bottoms to the music  they call riddimz...frankly that's just noisy music for me. I know now you are like "Why didn't  I leave.?" Well it was raining...and I stay quite a distant from school...and could not even think of stepping out of the dinning hall/ dance hall. As I was sleeping and about to have a nice dream...I guess...I felt a soft touch on my cheeks...Man!!! Anyways...opened my eyes and there she was...smiling and staring at me. Wanted to slap her real hard for interrupting my sweet sleep...but remained composed. No one is allowed to disturb my sleep patterns except when am gaming or receiving a call from mum...NO ONE!!!
She sat besides me and asked why I was sleeping...Just replied bored...wishing she could just let me be. Then as we were talking...the kind of friends you have that always influence you to do something that was never on your mind...well she came along together with her boyfriend...and before they even sat down...a song started playing...and so they forced me to act as a "gentleman" whoever came up with that must have been suffering from a mental disease. Gentleman...ha ha..hahahaha so funny.
So gave into their pressure...and started dancing...and by dancing I mean standing up and side stepping...have a very rigid body.As you recall...that's where the boner decided to come and ruin my night. I hurriedly went back to sit...pretending I was tired.
Well, a guy friend of hers stepped in and replaced me. I felt sad,and angry... don't know why. I wanted to stand up smash that guy...how stupid is he touching my GIRL ...ooops my dance partner like that? But being me...I just watched...and watched...two songs later...I was still watching. I guess she realized my jealousy sorry..my sadness and anger and came to consul me by chatting up. An hour later...it was already 5;30 and told her I was about to leave. So she decided to walk with me  until we reached near our clinic. Said thanks for that push and hugged her...I dont know how it happened...found myself kissing her...my first kiss...A minute to remember. Did not want to stop...but had to...I was shivering...So I said goodbye and off I went still perplexed why I did that...Oooh...She was my crush...and mydream came true.   

Life after breakups

I know!!!
Am not the first neither will I be the last.
So it's 1am and am still up. My heart racing cause of her even though it is now the fourth month after we parted ways.
I don't know why...damn!!! She is that ex that will always be on your mind...no matter how hard you try. The usual happened, she blocked me...I blocked her back...then unblocked...then I unblocked her...then she blocked me again. That's how we doing it...don't know about you.
 So been thinking whether to start a new relationship but naaah.
Back to my relationship...mean my past relationship...So am a guy in campus...and we all know what happens there. Guys there are on a sex a thon while I was the few holy ones that refused to partake in cohabiting like my fellow students.
How we met?
Had decided to attend my first ever campus night after three trimesters in university.So the usual things happened...I sat down next to her.
Almost forgot...I had been avoiding her since we joined campus...and prior to that night we had exchanged a few hi's so the night wasn't that awkward. The event got a little boring...and we decided to play the adult version of truth or dare. We played...and got to know her more...fyi just so you know...I am picky when it comes to ladies...I prefer the ones with a high intellect... just like me...so I feel like am dealing with an equal. So she is a med student...and the night passed on very fast...and had the chance to have my first dance with her.
She was good...made me have an instant boner!!! Could not believe what I had been missing all along. I am not a party freak neither do I fancy going out...I find being alone pure bliss...nothing can change that.
To be continued....

Dear Life

Dear Life,

What does it take for one to be on the good side with you? Is it not enough that you have taken so much already? Each day I wake up and think to myself,”What have I done wrong?” but sadly I do not have the answer. I look at the way people get stressed over the money thing. Why did you have to make it so? People struggle just to find a meal for a day, not knowing what tomorrow will bring, is a rich thought, many don’t  want to find out.

A woman, who ought to be a pillar of the family and a respected person, is forced to sell herself, just because she can’t bare the site of her beloved children go hungry… just for a simple meal! You have made most of us hopeless, lacking the will to face another day, because we have nothing left to live for. Tell us what you want so that we may give it to you.

Why is it you have blessed some of us, yet we can’t appreciate you. We have almost everything, yet we still yearn for more. Why is it so? Guess only you have the answer to that. We have it all, yet we squander it all on useless things, each time failing to realize the difference we might make. Just a little may go a long way.

That difference everyone has been singing about, but has never been seen, then that must be our punishment. We are still waiting for the one who will open our eyes and finally see, see what the likes of Mahatma Gandhi saw when he refused earthly possessions for spiritual fulfilment, Mother Teresa, chose to live with the miserable, sick and dying cause they needed help. Sadly they aren't here to share with us… blind we shall remain.

What’s with our political leaders? Yes we vote them in, every term in hopes of a better life, better infrastructure, more jobs, less crime. But it remains just that…hope. All they do best is get fatter, I bet to fry better once they visit the fiery pits of hell, bicker like people in a market place without a purpose. When will they stop and realize that we are dying…our hopes fading…our country slowly being divided into two tribes… the rich and the poor.

But when all that happens, we still have the strength to endure and persevere for we have an ever present source of strength…GOD. We believe he has greater plans for us…today…tomorrow or after 30years… HE knows what’s best for us, even though we are too blind to see. Our prayers to HIM, is our own way of talking to our father, our helper, our strength.

That’s why dear life, I will always be ready…no matter what you throw my way, I see that as a hurdle and prepare myself to jump over it as high as I can. So whether we like it or hate it…we have to endure you and learn to live with you. 

Not a perfect World

What does it take for one to know they have found that special one? Could it be the way you feel uneasy when they walk past you or Just say “hi” randomly and you are shocked they notice you. Or the number of times you constantly practice on what to say, and when that time comes all you can utter are indistinct murmurs only audible to you. In your mind thinking how you have just messed up that perfect opportunity. Frankly I have never known, and I’m sure I never will.

Each one yearns for that “Soul mate” that “Perfect guy” that “beautiful lady” to come and complete us. Take away that vacuum that we have inside of us. Fill us with love, so we don’t get jealous or sad when we see our friends happy with their better halves. It hurts, and you get that impulsive urge to find someone.

Many are the times you think you are not good enough, not beautiful enough or not that handsome for the one you want. Deep down you want to be with them, but that fear of being rejected wins each time. So you just give up and go for the one you feel at par with. Doing this makes you feel miserable and unhappy. You try to change your new partner so as to be a clone of the one you wanted, thus the arguments start and before you know it you are back to that person you were before.

When alone, you start to think what went wrong. Put the blame on the other person, saying to yourself that “I was not the one who had faults”, all in effort to try and soothe your broken self. You decide to shut out the world and immerse yourself in thoughts of how things would have been, while slowly your life fades away. You choose to live in the past rather than the present.

I know we all have been there, and some of us are still there. Waiting for someone to come and pull us out of that deep well we have put ourselves in. To be frank, no one will ever come, that’s just an assumption we have. The time is now, to open our eyes and take that chance you let pass you by, all you need is courage, and maybe you can find the strength you need to climb out of that well and live life as it’s meant to be, taking chances each day so you don’t live with regrets tomorrow.

By doing so, you take away the questions you would have asked yourself, “What went wrong” and realize that “it’s not my fault’”. Maybe that’s when you are going to see the world the way it’s meant to be, neither perfect nor beautiful, it’s what you make it to be that matters most.  Maybe that’s when you open your eyes and start seeing what you had been missing all along, YOUR LIFE as you want it.

Prayers Of the Young

In this age, we have so many temptations. Our peers influence us, thus we tend to forget OURSELVES.
Being looked as if we are from a different world, just because we find solace in prayer, bliss in praising our GOD.
Because of that, many of us tend to shy away from the place that brought us peace, forgetting we are also moving away from GOD. By doing so, we become alienated from GOD, making our prayers to HIM disgusting.

1 Peter 3:12, "For the eyes of the LORD are on the righteous, and HIS ears are open to their prayers; but the face of the LORD is against those who do evil."

 GOD hears the prayers of his faithful children.
Because we are young, we tend to approach GOD with an attitude, often filled with self-righteousness.
In Luke 18:9-14, We are given the example of the Pharisee, who went to the temple to pray, but he was full of himself and his own goodness. He didn't ask for favor and grace of GOD. But in that same temple, the tax collector prayed a simple prayer," GOD, have mercy on me, a sinner." He humbled himself and his prayer was heard. For it is written, those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who who humble themselves will be exalted.

The time is now to start praying for heavenly desires, for they are most important. After all, Psalms 37:4
"Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart,"

GOD listens to us, and answers according to our prayer. Matthew 7:9," Ask and it shall be given to you; knock, and it shall be opened to you; Or what man is there of you, whom if son ask bread, will give him stone?."

Dear Opposition

Why go to great lengths to try and De-stabilise an infant Government when its trying to learn how to walk.
You come up with arguments that seem only to quench your thirst for power.
You bring threats of carrying out mass protests so as to have a re-election.
Claims of corruption, tribalism and abuse of power seem to be the word on the tips of your tongues.
So, your leader went the USA and gave lectures in universities there, so you think is like a messiah.
Ask yourself, how many years has he been in the limelight, yet he has nothing to show for it.
Yes he may claim he was held and tortured for us to get the perceived  democracy he was fighting for.
I don't know the magnitude of his suffering, but couldn't he act in a distinguished and gentleman manner as
did the late Nelson Mandela did?
Instead of trying to work with the government, all you can do is criticize it. Yes, your claims may be right,
but why cant you do what you are supposed to to...Keep the government in check.
The discord among yourself is a show of even among yourselves, rivalry exists.
We have another four years before the elections, if you want to make a difference,its now.Stop yelling and
start working. We are tired of your bickering. And dear sir, please retire, you are too old for us. We will always remember the lesson you taught us. Defeat is inevitable, what you do next is what matters most.

And the government, continue working toward making Kenya a prosperous nation... but never forget who put you there.

Kenyan University Ranks

The following list is for the top 20 universities in Kenya

1		University of Nairobi(Public)
2		Kenyatta University
3		Strathmore University Nairobi(Private)
4		Egerton University(Public)
5		Jomo Kenyatta University of Agriculture and Technology(Public)
6		Maseno University(Public)
7		African Virtual University(Private)
8		Moi University(Public)
9		Kenya Methodist University(Private)
10		Taita Taveta University College(Public)
11		Catholic University of Eastern Africa
12		Mount Kenya University(Private)
13		Daystar University(Private)
14		KCA University(Private)
15		(1) Africa International University (Nairobi Evangelical Graduate School of Theology)(Private)
16		Masinde Muliro University of Science and Technology(Public)
17		International School of Kenya(Private)
18		University of Eastern Africa Baraton(Private)
19		United States International University(Private)
20		Scott Theological College(Private)