What does it take for one to know
they have found that special one? Could it be the way you feel uneasy when they
walk past you or Just say “hi” randomly and you are shocked they notice you. Or
the number of times you constantly practice on what to say, and when that time
comes all you can utter are indistinct murmurs only audible to you. In your
mind thinking how you have just messed up that perfect opportunity. Frankly I
have never known, and I’m sure I never will.
Each one yearns for that “Soul
mate” that “Perfect guy” that “beautiful lady” to come and complete us. Take
away that vacuum that we have inside of us. Fill us with love, so we don’t get
jealous or sad when we see our friends happy with their better halves. It
hurts, and you get that impulsive urge to find someone.
Many are the times you think you
are not good enough, not beautiful enough or not that handsome for the one you
want. Deep down you want to be with them, but that fear of being rejected wins
each time. So you just give up and go for the one you feel at par with. Doing
this makes you feel miserable and unhappy. You try to change your new partner
so as to be a clone of the one you wanted, thus the arguments start and before
you know it you are back to that person you were before.
When alone, you start to think
what went wrong. Put the blame on the other person, saying to yourself that “I
was not the one who had faults”, all in effort to try and soothe your broken
self. You decide to shut out the world and immerse yourself in thoughts of how
things would have been, while slowly your life fades away. You choose to live
in the past rather than the present.
I know we all have been there,
and some of us are still there. Waiting for someone to come and pull us out of
that deep well we have put ourselves in. To be frank, no one will ever come,
that’s just an assumption we have. The time is now, to open our eyes and take
that chance you let pass you by, all you need is courage, and maybe you can
find the strength you need to climb out of that well and live life as it’s
meant to be, taking chances each day so you don’t live with regrets tomorrow.
By doing so, you take away the
questions you would have asked yourself, “What went wrong” and realize that
“it’s not my fault’”. Maybe that’s when you are going to see the world the way
it’s meant to be, neither perfect nor beautiful, it’s what you make it to be
that matters most. Maybe that’s when you
open your eyes and start seeing what you had been missing all along, YOUR LIFE
as you want it.
